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[mynamenotwhoiam]

Why...why won't this stop?!

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[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

I'll be fine. This...this isn't the first time I've had dreams like these.

[somethingblue]

It isn't? If they're anything like my own, they're rather disturbing. Beings shouldn't be suffering through unpleasantness during their recharging stage. Makes this whole slumber thing rather pointless.

[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

I'd rather think about these things at night than during the day.

I'm...used to not sleeping that well.

[somethingblue]

I'd rather not think about them at all.

Isn't that strange, though? Shouldn't it be a time of res? I thought that was the purpose of it — unless I'm completely mistaken, which I doubt. But then again, I've never had to 'sleep' before.

[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

You're not human, are you?

Just because we're supposed to sleep at night, it doesn't always mean we can.

[somethingblue]

I'm not meant to be of flesh, but for the moment I have no choice, if that's what you mean.

No, I suppose that is a point. One doesn't always have the power to control how things should be. What do you usually do when you cannot rest?

[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

I...

I'm usually around other people, so there's not really that much I can do. I just have to hope I stop thinking about whatever made me so upset that I couldn't sleep.

[somethingblue]

Maybe you should think about something pleasant in place of what's haunting your rest.

[ a beat ]

Like kittens. I hear people are fond of kittens. Or puppies.

[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

[Hope makes an "uh-huh" sound as he shakes his head.]

That kind of stuff never helps. It's not enough.

[somethingblue]

That's unfortunate. Perhaps, then, you should try to surround yourself with people if that's helped you before?

[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

It doesn't make any difference. The nightmares still come.

[somethingblue]

But there is comfort in the presence of others, isn't there?

[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

Y-yeah...it does, at least a little.

[somethingblue]

No one should be alone when they're upset or troubled.

[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

I'm not. I have friends here with me.

[somethingblue]

Then you're lucky. Maybe they can help you feel better? Is there anything that can be done to help someone when they're sad about a world of visions in their heads, though?

[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

It depends on how bad they are.

[somethingblue]

Does it...?
Why is that?

[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

Sometimes helping someone when that happens can be really easy. Other times you might just make things worse, without even realizing it.

[somethingblue]

Really... [ well that's intriguing ] I would not have thought about it that way, to be honest.

[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

No one does. Why would they? All they're doing is trying to help.

[somethingblue]

You're rather bright, aren't you? [ her voice is soft for a moment ] I've never felt worry for people that I haven't known or housed before, but — will you be alright? Is there something I could do to help? I'm not so terribly fond of someone who seems so clever being upset.

[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

Thank you, but...I don't think there is. I'm not the only one having nightmares like this, so I think there's more to it that we can't see.

[somethingblue]

Oh, that's very likely. That's how it always appears to be, in my experience anyway.

[mynamenotwhoiam.livejournal.com]

I wanna find out what's going on though. I won't leave things like this.